the 14th day

Today is the 14th day we broke up. Its really not worth to be like that actually . I really cant figure it out why its too late as long as you have the heart and confidence to changed and face everythings together. Actually i am really damn sad at the past few days but till today, i think i am being ok. I can control myself not crying anymore, i can control my mind not thinking of the negative way anymore but sometimes i still do cuz i am human and human got feeling! Maybe that its not the real things or the real person i met before, i not sure, Its really seems so strange to me now, its like a brand new things in front of me and i totally cant get what its thinking or what. I dont even know this person now. Everythings seems so fake to me right now,just like i am awaken from the dreams.Things changed, but its changed too fast till i cant even accept it. I am quite disappointed actually, its really hurts my feeling. I dont hope anythings happen badly between me and him again. Time can proved everythings or time can heal the sadness?? Let's see now.. i really dont wish to hear anythings from other people now cuz this just involved between me and him. I am so tired of it, i am not a robot, i aslo will tired. I dont hope to care anythings more. Its really doesn't matter to me now. The more i step deeper into it, the more it turns bad. The only things i could do now is really fully concentrate in my studies. Its not a big deal right ? XD Everyday is a brand new day for me and i have promised myself to smile everyday. I need to be as happy as i could cuz crying its not a way to solve problems. I am growing up now. I am being matured. I gonna to change myself. Wait to see a brand new ESTHER !! [hope i really could do so] really just 顺其自然 lo. no forcing please. I really get it now. Thanks ..!! :D

EXAM!!!!

Just a blink of an eye, exam is juzt around the corner now. Help! I really gonna study hard for this finla exam term cuz i didnt get good marks in the middle term.. I really dunno waht the sej talking about.. Making me blur =.= Biology! OMG!! That i need to study a lot!!!But after this exam, there's gonna be two weeks holiday . yeah!!!!

There's things i gonna do during the holiday:-
1) pratice hard for my piano (usually i always say so but, hmm... never really do so =p )
2) go muvee wit my beloved piggy!!
3) its time to tidy up my room! (gosh, its messy like a bird nest!)
4) on diet+sports =] [ KEVIN TEO made me gain my weight again!]
5) online to ply game!! But need to get his permission.. lawl!!!!

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I didnt online about one month cuz of the stupid line! Hmmm.. So miss my computer!!! haha XD.. Actually i didnt have anythings to say recently. I do have a lot of things in my heart but i dunno who to share except to him, but i dunno why recently i start to have the feeling that he gonna go away from me since i had that BAD DREAM! I told joey the dream today. Actually its quite funny but i really dont wish it come true. Its a horrible dream for me. I told him my feelings but he just smile at me and said dont be silly my girl. Did i feel more comfortable when he says that?? 'NO'! I really dunno why, maybe i get influnce by those drama movie! Hey, drama movie! you should change your scripts!!! hmmmm... That all for today. Wish me good day?!? =]

Earth Hour!

Today, 28th of March is Earth Hour Day! I really do to switch off the lights between that one hour. Actually i am quite disappointed because i didnt see my neighbours to switch off their light except the one who lives opposite my house. Gosh! How can they dont switch off their lights? Is they too busy till they have forgotten or they just dont even care about the stupid things .... =.= Can they realized that our earth is getting sick day by day?? GLOBAL WARMING!!!! Human, we really need to love our earth because this is the only planet that we lived. Please reuse, reduce and recycle -3R. Fuiyoh, i seems like natural lovers but i really is except sometimes .. Hahaz XD

Well well well, today happened a lot if things in the class. Tomorrow is penguin's birthday and our class sang a happy bithrday song for her.. =] She seems happy but just pretend and dont let us to know. So, our class aslo doing the same things to the other subject teacher even not their birthday today.. Our class really kinda like carzy and i actually loves my class much ! Maybe this is the reason why last time i cant exchange to the other class because fade had let me to love this class.

SENIOR ONE ZHONG ROCKS !!!!!

LAMEO xo

I get my phy paper back on the last day of my exam. I cant believe that i saw the marks! Gosh, that is my first senior phy paper and aslo the first time i failed my exam! Wakao neh, that Raymond still get 84 in the class, i think he is the top ranked. =[ But lucikly still got lost of people fail and include him aslo. Lawl. Too proud!!!

Holiday... Stop saying of that.. He ruin my day today. Kevin teo, better you promised what you said today! hmmm .. If not!!! MUahahahahahah.. So i just at home the whole day and plying the pet society..Lawl. DAmn laggggggggg.....

hey blog!

I didnt touch my blog for about two months.. Hahaz XP.. I am busy wit my studies these few month. Gosh! I am frazzled wit it. It take me ages to study and my homework. It seems like wont no 'ending' and my 1st exam in my senior section is just around the corner. I gonna work hard for it. ==== UISEH +++++++++

We seems quite happy wit him cuz we gonna to celebrate our 5th month anniversary soon. He gave me rose, ROXY purse and aslo self-made card as my Valentine's day present too. Actually i am quite happy when i receive the flower although i hate flowers. HAHA! I knew it weird but i reallt so happy wit it.

Lets talk about today.. UHMMMM.. Actually doenst have any special things happened today. Just another tired day aslo and now i gonna stop here cuz i am having my physics test tomorrow! PEACE =]

This is our 'SS+ing' pic during these few month

3rd month anniversary!!!

Today is our 3rd month anniversary! Actually i dont have any feeling that moment went i woke up. I start to began happy when he gave me the breakfast that he cooked by himself to me. I am so happy that time because it is the first time my boy cooked for me and i aslo dont even know how to cook, haha XD We shared our breakfast together and i am shocked that he gave me the'love pillow' . =.= Its quiet a long day today but we seems like got a bit unhappy this afternoon and i will always say " SORRY LO" to him... =]